Update: Down 2, now at an even 240
I don't know where my willpower is coming from. I don't know why this time things click and make sense about how to do this. I don't know why I am finally looking at myself and not seeing a fat girl, but a girl who doesn't have to be fat. I love this feeling, the one where I am in control of my destiny.
On the days I don't exercise I miss it. On the days I don't want to exercise and do it anyway, I am really glad I did. On the days I am pumped to go exercise I try to do a little more than the day before. Where did THIS person come from? She is new, not someone I have known before, but I like her. I like her positivity, her demeanor, her attitude. The thing is SHE is ME! I didn't know this person lurked inside me, I am glad she has come forth to be in my world. It is my sincere hope she doesn't go into hiding again. (for the record, I am not crazy, it is not a multiple personality disorder)
I have always been a couch potato, and I admit, I still like my spot on the couch. I am not quite a Sheldon from the Big Bang Theory, but I do have my spot. Now though I thoroughly enjoy walking, tae bo, and yoga. I also enjoy Just Dance and tennis for the wii. As my mom would quote from the movie "Madagascar", "I like to move it move it".
Therefore I now completely understand the old adage an object at rest tends to stay at rest, but an object in motion tends to stay in motion. And, I for one, am going to stay in motion.
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Milestones
Well I did it, I hit the 20 lb mark! Now 242!
Milestones come in life some you welcome, some you don't, some you expect some surprise you. This was a week of milestones. Starting with the 20 pounds. I was beginning to wonder if I would ever get to this point. I realize I didn't gain the weight over night, and I won't lose it over night either. I was just starting to feel like I was going to be stuck at the 17-18 pounds forever. I was elated to get on the scale on Wednesday and see that I had surpassed that and had finally hit the 20 pounds gone.
Wednesday, I was so happy! Until about 1:30 pm when I received a text message from my sister. It simply said that Davy Jones of the Monkees had passed away early that day. Now you think to yourself, that is really sad, I feel for his family and friends, and wish him safe passage to the next stop on his journey. But, for me, this was a similar devastation as it was for Elvis fans when he passed. I don't really understand it myself. I hadn't listened to a Monkees song in months and I hadn't searched for Davy online in at least that long if not more than a year. But the Monkees and specifically Davy were a huge part of my childhood. I would turn on Nickelodeon and watch the re-runs every day after school. I even saw them on their 20th reunion tour, in August of 1987. So needless to say this milestone was unexpected, unwanted, and shocking.
Milestones. There are many more to come in my journey. I am looking forward to weight loss milestones, career milestones, and any others that are in store for me that I have no clue about at this point. But I fear there are many more sad milestones coming that I am not ready for, nor do I want to come. But come they will, and I will power through, the same way I am with this weight loss journey. It is one step at a time, and you never know when that next step is going to be a biggie.
Today, another milestone has occurred in my family. My cousin Andy and his lovely wife Jill, welcomed a new addition to the family. Marie Amilee Bare was born. And they named her after my Grandmother who passed 2 yrs ago in April. Marie, was my Grandmothers name. This little one has a lot of milestones to come in her world, and I look forward to watching her grow and achieve those.
BRING IT ON, there is nothing I can not power through. Milestones, will not get me down, at least not to the point where I can't get up and carry on. Next target milestone, is 25 pounds. It is coming, and I am ready.
Milestones come in life some you welcome, some you don't, some you expect some surprise you. This was a week of milestones. Starting with the 20 pounds. I was beginning to wonder if I would ever get to this point. I realize I didn't gain the weight over night, and I won't lose it over night either. I was just starting to feel like I was going to be stuck at the 17-18 pounds forever. I was elated to get on the scale on Wednesday and see that I had surpassed that and had finally hit the 20 pounds gone.
Wednesday, I was so happy! Until about 1:30 pm when I received a text message from my sister. It simply said that Davy Jones of the Monkees had passed away early that day. Now you think to yourself, that is really sad, I feel for his family and friends, and wish him safe passage to the next stop on his journey. But, for me, this was a similar devastation as it was for Elvis fans when he passed. I don't really understand it myself. I hadn't listened to a Monkees song in months and I hadn't searched for Davy online in at least that long if not more than a year. But the Monkees and specifically Davy were a huge part of my childhood. I would turn on Nickelodeon and watch the re-runs every day after school. I even saw them on their 20th reunion tour, in August of 1987. So needless to say this milestone was unexpected, unwanted, and shocking.
Milestones. There are many more to come in my journey. I am looking forward to weight loss milestones, career milestones, and any others that are in store for me that I have no clue about at this point. But I fear there are many more sad milestones coming that I am not ready for, nor do I want to come. But come they will, and I will power through, the same way I am with this weight loss journey. It is one step at a time, and you never know when that next step is going to be a biggie.
Today, another milestone has occurred in my family. My cousin Andy and his lovely wife Jill, welcomed a new addition to the family. Marie Amilee Bare was born. And they named her after my Grandmother who passed 2 yrs ago in April. Marie, was my Grandmothers name. This little one has a lot of milestones to come in her world, and I look forward to watching her grow and achieve those.
BRING IT ON, there is nothing I can not power through. Milestones, will not get me down, at least not to the point where I can't get up and carry on. Next target milestone, is 25 pounds. It is coming, and I am ready.
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