Well,
I have to "Learn to live with it". I suspected as much. Though the doctor did tell me, that I am NOT crazy, even if I feel like I am. (at least not because of the noise in my ears)
They did a hearing test, and the mild hearing loss which I knew I had was detected. It however is not enough to warrant hearing aids.
I don't wish this on anyone. I am sure it will take a few months but I am also confident that I can learn to ignore it, at least during the "living hours" of the day. It is the night time that scares me, I am only getting about 3-4 hours of sleep at night right now. I would not call them restful either. The white noise app on my phone helps some, at least I fall asleep, now if I could just figure out the frequency on the app that not only lets me fall asleep but also keeps me asleep I would be very happy.
Thank you all for the juju and prayers, I have a difficult road ahead but I am sure I can manage. I firmly believe that you are not given more than you can handle. Though this is surely testing my limits.
Becky
Monday, December 10, 2012
Friday, December 7, 2012
I feel like I am going nuts.
Update:
I got off of Weight Watchers from Aprilish until October. At which time I joined back up and am actually attending meetings. I had gained back 15 lbs of what I had lost and I am happy to say I am back down those 15 pounds now.
However, I am going nuts.
Well at least I feel like it, I have been told a lot of people suffer from this condition. I am praying that the doctor on Monday can give me some help to either learn to cope with it or fix it. The condition? Tinnitus, a constant very annoying ringing/buzzing/noise in your ears -- people commonly say it's in their head. NO ONE else can hear the noise, and for me that is the worst part. If you could hear it too, I wouldn't feel nearly as insane as I do.
Background: Due to asthma and multiple ear infections as a child I lost approximately 20% of my hearing in both ears. YOU would never know that though, because after 30+ years I have either gained that back or learned to cope exceptionally well and it is virtually undetectable now. The only time I really notice the loss is when someone is walking in front of me and trying to talk to me, when the sound is carrying away from me, I can't hear you. This buzzing sound -- I equate to cicadas in the summer -- is not new to me. I have had it most of what I can remember, I thought it was normal. UNTIL 2 weeks or so ago, when it was so INCREDIBLY loud in the middle of the night I woke up crying.
It has never been so loud that I couldn't function. Mind you, I thought this was normal, I didn't know there was actually something called complete silence, where you heard NO sound at all. I never told anyone about the sound in my head because it has always just been there. But when I couldn't sleep because of it, I knew there was something more wrong. I did some research, I brought it up to my audiologist cousin, and she assures me I am not crazy (at least not in this way), and now I have a doctor appointment with an ENT on Monday 12/10. Though I don't know what they can do for me. All my research says you basically have to learn to live with it, and avoid excessively loud sounds.
This sound is all I can focus on, I don't know how I am going to "learn to live with it" if that is indeed the case. I want to cry ALL the time. I even had my mom put her ear to mine to see if she could hear it, because at least then I would have shared it, she of course could not hear it, I didn't really expect her to be able to but was hopeful.
If you are the praying kind, please say one for me that I make it through this, because right now I would rather be deaf than have this noise. Thanks for listening. I will try to post more often again, and at least an update on what the doctor had to say.
Becky
I got off of Weight Watchers from Aprilish until October. At which time I joined back up and am actually attending meetings. I had gained back 15 lbs of what I had lost and I am happy to say I am back down those 15 pounds now.
However, I am going nuts.
Well at least I feel like it, I have been told a lot of people suffer from this condition. I am praying that the doctor on Monday can give me some help to either learn to cope with it or fix it. The condition? Tinnitus, a constant very annoying ringing/buzzing/noise in your ears -- people commonly say it's in their head. NO ONE else can hear the noise, and for me that is the worst part. If you could hear it too, I wouldn't feel nearly as insane as I do.
Background: Due to asthma and multiple ear infections as a child I lost approximately 20% of my hearing in both ears. YOU would never know that though, because after 30+ years I have either gained that back or learned to cope exceptionally well and it is virtually undetectable now. The only time I really notice the loss is when someone is walking in front of me and trying to talk to me, when the sound is carrying away from me, I can't hear you. This buzzing sound -- I equate to cicadas in the summer -- is not new to me. I have had it most of what I can remember, I thought it was normal. UNTIL 2 weeks or so ago, when it was so INCREDIBLY loud in the middle of the night I woke up crying.
It has never been so loud that I couldn't function. Mind you, I thought this was normal, I didn't know there was actually something called complete silence, where you heard NO sound at all. I never told anyone about the sound in my head because it has always just been there. But when I couldn't sleep because of it, I knew there was something more wrong. I did some research, I brought it up to my audiologist cousin, and she assures me I am not crazy (at least not in this way), and now I have a doctor appointment with an ENT on Monday 12/10. Though I don't know what they can do for me. All my research says you basically have to learn to live with it, and avoid excessively loud sounds.
This sound is all I can focus on, I don't know how I am going to "learn to live with it" if that is indeed the case. I want to cry ALL the time. I even had my mom put her ear to mine to see if she could hear it, because at least then I would have shared it, she of course could not hear it, I didn't really expect her to be able to but was hopeful.
If you are the praying kind, please say one for me that I make it through this, because right now I would rather be deaf than have this noise. Thanks for listening. I will try to post more often again, and at least an update on what the doctor had to say.
Becky
Monday, June 4, 2012
Welcome Back!
I am welcoming you back to me being back on the weight watcher wagon. (haha)
Well it has been a couple months, well more like almost 3, but I am not really counting exact ;) Needless to say it has been a seriously difficult few months. In March I had a MASSIVE arthritis flare up in my lower back that caused me to use a cane a few times, without it, I couldn't have made it down a hallway. As that was getting better, I suffered from Influenza A and spiked a 104* fever, ya that is no fun, don't do it! Once both of those things seemed to be cleared up and I thought I was good to go, I got the head cold of the century. NOW, however, with the exception of being freaking exhausted today, I feel pretty good!
Well to the nitty gritty, during all this I wasn't paying attention to points or even very close to portion control. I was too stressed to care. And I am a stress eater, of course I am also an emotional eater, and any other kind of eater you can imagine, I even *gasp* eat when I am hungry. SO during all this I only gained back 7 lbs, I am now 245. I wasn't ecstatic about having gained but I was thrilled I was still well below 250.
Of course I now have new motivation again. My sister is getting married in May of 2013. I am currently wearing a size 20/22 and my goal is to be in a 16/18, totally doable if I buckle down, and work hard. So I could use some good support over the next 10 months, I better be at my goal by then so the dress will have a chance to be tailored to fit correctly. So you can look forward to more blog posts again, thanks for taking the time to read.
Well it has been a couple months, well more like almost 3, but I am not really counting exact ;) Needless to say it has been a seriously difficult few months. In March I had a MASSIVE arthritis flare up in my lower back that caused me to use a cane a few times, without it, I couldn't have made it down a hallway. As that was getting better, I suffered from Influenza A and spiked a 104* fever, ya that is no fun, don't do it! Once both of those things seemed to be cleared up and I thought I was good to go, I got the head cold of the century. NOW, however, with the exception of being freaking exhausted today, I feel pretty good!
Well to the nitty gritty, during all this I wasn't paying attention to points or even very close to portion control. I was too stressed to care. And I am a stress eater, of course I am also an emotional eater, and any other kind of eater you can imagine, I even *gasp* eat when I am hungry. SO during all this I only gained back 7 lbs, I am now 245. I wasn't ecstatic about having gained but I was thrilled I was still well below 250.
Of course I now have new motivation again. My sister is getting married in May of 2013. I am currently wearing a size 20/22 and my goal is to be in a 16/18, totally doable if I buckle down, and work hard. So I could use some good support over the next 10 months, I better be at my goal by then so the dress will have a chance to be tailored to fit correctly. So you can look forward to more blog posts again, thanks for taking the time to read.
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
An Object in Motion Tends to Stay in Motion
Update: Down 2, now at an even 240
I don't know where my willpower is coming from. I don't know why this time things click and make sense about how to do this. I don't know why I am finally looking at myself and not seeing a fat girl, but a girl who doesn't have to be fat. I love this feeling, the one where I am in control of my destiny.
On the days I don't exercise I miss it. On the days I don't want to exercise and do it anyway, I am really glad I did. On the days I am pumped to go exercise I try to do a little more than the day before. Where did THIS person come from? She is new, not someone I have known before, but I like her. I like her positivity, her demeanor, her attitude. The thing is SHE is ME! I didn't know this person lurked inside me, I am glad she has come forth to be in my world. It is my sincere hope she doesn't go into hiding again. (for the record, I am not crazy, it is not a multiple personality disorder)
I have always been a couch potato, and I admit, I still like my spot on the couch. I am not quite a Sheldon from the Big Bang Theory, but I do have my spot. Now though I thoroughly enjoy walking, tae bo, and yoga. I also enjoy Just Dance and tennis for the wii. As my mom would quote from the movie "Madagascar", "I like to move it move it".
Therefore I now completely understand the old adage an object at rest tends to stay at rest, but an object in motion tends to stay in motion. And, I for one, am going to stay in motion.
I don't know where my willpower is coming from. I don't know why this time things click and make sense about how to do this. I don't know why I am finally looking at myself and not seeing a fat girl, but a girl who doesn't have to be fat. I love this feeling, the one where I am in control of my destiny.
On the days I don't exercise I miss it. On the days I don't want to exercise and do it anyway, I am really glad I did. On the days I am pumped to go exercise I try to do a little more than the day before. Where did THIS person come from? She is new, not someone I have known before, but I like her. I like her positivity, her demeanor, her attitude. The thing is SHE is ME! I didn't know this person lurked inside me, I am glad she has come forth to be in my world. It is my sincere hope she doesn't go into hiding again. (for the record, I am not crazy, it is not a multiple personality disorder)
I have always been a couch potato, and I admit, I still like my spot on the couch. I am not quite a Sheldon from the Big Bang Theory, but I do have my spot. Now though I thoroughly enjoy walking, tae bo, and yoga. I also enjoy Just Dance and tennis for the wii. As my mom would quote from the movie "Madagascar", "I like to move it move it".
Therefore I now completely understand the old adage an object at rest tends to stay at rest, but an object in motion tends to stay in motion. And, I for one, am going to stay in motion.
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Milestones
Well I did it, I hit the 20 lb mark! Now 242!
Milestones come in life some you welcome, some you don't, some you expect some surprise you. This was a week of milestones. Starting with the 20 pounds. I was beginning to wonder if I would ever get to this point. I realize I didn't gain the weight over night, and I won't lose it over night either. I was just starting to feel like I was going to be stuck at the 17-18 pounds forever. I was elated to get on the scale on Wednesday and see that I had surpassed that and had finally hit the 20 pounds gone.
Wednesday, I was so happy! Until about 1:30 pm when I received a text message from my sister. It simply said that Davy Jones of the Monkees had passed away early that day. Now you think to yourself, that is really sad, I feel for his family and friends, and wish him safe passage to the next stop on his journey. But, for me, this was a similar devastation as it was for Elvis fans when he passed. I don't really understand it myself. I hadn't listened to a Monkees song in months and I hadn't searched for Davy online in at least that long if not more than a year. But the Monkees and specifically Davy were a huge part of my childhood. I would turn on Nickelodeon and watch the re-runs every day after school. I even saw them on their 20th reunion tour, in August of 1987. So needless to say this milestone was unexpected, unwanted, and shocking.
Milestones. There are many more to come in my journey. I am looking forward to weight loss milestones, career milestones, and any others that are in store for me that I have no clue about at this point. But I fear there are many more sad milestones coming that I am not ready for, nor do I want to come. But come they will, and I will power through, the same way I am with this weight loss journey. It is one step at a time, and you never know when that next step is going to be a biggie.
Today, another milestone has occurred in my family. My cousin Andy and his lovely wife Jill, welcomed a new addition to the family. Marie Amilee Bare was born. And they named her after my Grandmother who passed 2 yrs ago in April. Marie, was my Grandmothers name. This little one has a lot of milestones to come in her world, and I look forward to watching her grow and achieve those.
BRING IT ON, there is nothing I can not power through. Milestones, will not get me down, at least not to the point where I can't get up and carry on. Next target milestone, is 25 pounds. It is coming, and I am ready.
Milestones come in life some you welcome, some you don't, some you expect some surprise you. This was a week of milestones. Starting with the 20 pounds. I was beginning to wonder if I would ever get to this point. I realize I didn't gain the weight over night, and I won't lose it over night either. I was just starting to feel like I was going to be stuck at the 17-18 pounds forever. I was elated to get on the scale on Wednesday and see that I had surpassed that and had finally hit the 20 pounds gone.
Wednesday, I was so happy! Until about 1:30 pm when I received a text message from my sister. It simply said that Davy Jones of the Monkees had passed away early that day. Now you think to yourself, that is really sad, I feel for his family and friends, and wish him safe passage to the next stop on his journey. But, for me, this was a similar devastation as it was for Elvis fans when he passed. I don't really understand it myself. I hadn't listened to a Monkees song in months and I hadn't searched for Davy online in at least that long if not more than a year. But the Monkees and specifically Davy were a huge part of my childhood. I would turn on Nickelodeon and watch the re-runs every day after school. I even saw them on their 20th reunion tour, in August of 1987. So needless to say this milestone was unexpected, unwanted, and shocking.
Milestones. There are many more to come in my journey. I am looking forward to weight loss milestones, career milestones, and any others that are in store for me that I have no clue about at this point. But I fear there are many more sad milestones coming that I am not ready for, nor do I want to come. But come they will, and I will power through, the same way I am with this weight loss journey. It is one step at a time, and you never know when that next step is going to be a biggie.
Today, another milestone has occurred in my family. My cousin Andy and his lovely wife Jill, welcomed a new addition to the family. Marie Amilee Bare was born. And they named her after my Grandmother who passed 2 yrs ago in April. Marie, was my Grandmothers name. This little one has a lot of milestones to come in her world, and I look forward to watching her grow and achieve those.
BRING IT ON, there is nothing I can not power through. Milestones, will not get me down, at least not to the point where I can't get up and carry on. Next target milestone, is 25 pounds. It is coming, and I am ready.
Thursday, February 23, 2012
Rollin' along
Update: Down another pound! Now 244. I was really hoping to get to 20 lbs this week, but I will settle for the 18 that are gone. :)
For the first time since starting Weight Watchers and exercising, I had a craving. A craving that I didn't think I was going to be able to avoid. I was a fast food junkie. I would eat at McDonald's (mostly, but the others once in a while too) at least 3 times a week. I have not been to a fast food place since Jan 1st, 2012. My willpower had been super strong. But last Friday, I wanted a double cheeseburger and fries and a large coke, and I wanted it bad.
As I do every weekend during pee-wee basketball season, I headed to Saginaw to help take care of my little nephew, while his brothers hoop it up. I drive by like 4 McDonald's on the way. I fought the urge by driving in the inside lane rather than the lane next to the driveway. I was certain if I didn't have that cushion between me and the restaurant I would lose the battle and pull in. I made it to my brothers house without stopping. *whew*
The craving didn't go away! Saturday, still wanted it, Sunday, still wanted it, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday- yep you guessed it still wanted it. And to top it off, on Monday I was SO hungry I thought I could eat an entire pizza, cheesecake, and loaf of bread! I haven't been hungry like that in a really LONG time. And certainly not since I had started on this journey. Then all became clear on Thursday. I am a girl. That pretty much sums it up. Sometimes being a girl sucks! But the good news is, I now know I can make it through even the toughest cravings. Even if I have to continue rollin' along right on past the drive way of all the fast food stops.
Thanks for reading! I'll be back next week.
For the first time since starting Weight Watchers and exercising, I had a craving. A craving that I didn't think I was going to be able to avoid. I was a fast food junkie. I would eat at McDonald's (mostly, but the others once in a while too) at least 3 times a week. I have not been to a fast food place since Jan 1st, 2012. My willpower had been super strong. But last Friday, I wanted a double cheeseburger and fries and a large coke, and I wanted it bad.
As I do every weekend during pee-wee basketball season, I headed to Saginaw to help take care of my little nephew, while his brothers hoop it up. I drive by like 4 McDonald's on the way. I fought the urge by driving in the inside lane rather than the lane next to the driveway. I was certain if I didn't have that cushion between me and the restaurant I would lose the battle and pull in. I made it to my brothers house without stopping. *whew*
The craving didn't go away! Saturday, still wanted it, Sunday, still wanted it, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday- yep you guessed it still wanted it. And to top it off, on Monday I was SO hungry I thought I could eat an entire pizza, cheesecake, and loaf of bread! I haven't been hungry like that in a really LONG time. And certainly not since I had started on this journey. Then all became clear on Thursday. I am a girl. That pretty much sums it up. Sometimes being a girl sucks! But the good news is, I now know I can make it through even the toughest cravings. Even if I have to continue rollin' along right on past the drive way of all the fast food stops.
Thanks for reading! I'll be back next week.
Thursday, February 16, 2012
Holding My Own
The update: 0 lbs lost and 0 lbs gained still 245.
The blog: In attempts past, this would have been very devastating to me. NO LOSS?? What? Meh, Sometimes you are going to lose and sometimes you are going to gain, and sometimes you are going to hold your own.
I have been doing a lot of losing over the first 5 weeks or so, and as I have said before that is not likely to always be the case. This week is just the first of many that will feel like I am not succeeding. HOWEVER, I know what happened that I didn't lose, I knew it when it was happening, and I was just hoping I wouldn't gain. I went out to dinner on Friday, had dessert, a drink, and a big breakfast on Saturday morning. I CHOSE not to track those weight watcher points. I needed a break from all the worry of what I was putting in my mouth. Sometimes you just need to enjoy yourself.
I refuse this time to let a minor "set back" or outright choice I made to be my demise. So when I checked the scale on Monday to see where I was at and was up a pound, I re-focused, and pushed ahead. By Wednesday (my weigh in day) I was back to the same as last week. I intend to be down a little next week. That is how this has to go. There are no true set backs, there are only bumps in the road. I will not let a bump deter me from my goal.
Thanks for reading!
The blog: In attempts past, this would have been very devastating to me. NO LOSS?? What? Meh, Sometimes you are going to lose and sometimes you are going to gain, and sometimes you are going to hold your own.
I have been doing a lot of losing over the first 5 weeks or so, and as I have said before that is not likely to always be the case. This week is just the first of many that will feel like I am not succeeding. HOWEVER, I know what happened that I didn't lose, I knew it when it was happening, and I was just hoping I wouldn't gain. I went out to dinner on Friday, had dessert, a drink, and a big breakfast on Saturday morning. I CHOSE not to track those weight watcher points. I needed a break from all the worry of what I was putting in my mouth. Sometimes you just need to enjoy yourself.
I refuse this time to let a minor "set back" or outright choice I made to be my demise. So when I checked the scale on Monday to see where I was at and was up a pound, I re-focused, and pushed ahead. By Wednesday (my weigh in day) I was back to the same as last week. I intend to be down a little next week. That is how this has to go. There are no true set backs, there are only bumps in the road. I will not let a bump deter me from my goal.
Thanks for reading!
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Changing sizes
The update: Down 1 lb to 245, I don't think I have seen this number on the scale in maybe 2-3 years. For those keeping track, it is 17 lbs gone :) Needless to say I am thrilled.
The blog: I haven't had an occasion to go shopping for clothes in a while. I got a few new things at Christmas, and my birthday back in October, but with out a reason to go get something new, I tend to save my pennies. This coming Friday, myself and a couple of my cousins (all girls) are going to a hotel to celebrate a milestone birthday for one of us. We thought it would be fun to have matching jammies, so I went shopping.
Typically I would have just grabbed the 3x knowing it would fit, bought it and walked out of the store. I just couldn't bring myself to do that this time. Some of my 3x items had been fitting rather loose and I thought it was time to try a 2x. I grabbed a 3x to take to the fitting room too, just in case. I would have been fine either way, I am the size I am and I can't change it over night. If we could do that we would all eat to our hearts content and wake up a size no bigger than 6 in the morning. So I put the 2x on and was very pleased. Aside from the bottoms being a little on the long side, they fit just fine, and so did the top! I probably could have put on a 1x but wouldn't have been comfortable until I lose another 10-15 pounds.
Changing sizes is fun, when the numbers get smaller :) Looking forward to more sizes in the future, eventually hoping to have to buy ALL NEW CLOTHES. And for a girl that isn't a bad thing :)
The birthday girl doesn't know we are doing this, she will be thrilled and giggly. It is fun to go back in time and act like a teenager at a slumber party, everyone should do it once in a while.
Thanks for reading!
The blog: I haven't had an occasion to go shopping for clothes in a while. I got a few new things at Christmas, and my birthday back in October, but with out a reason to go get something new, I tend to save my pennies. This coming Friday, myself and a couple of my cousins (all girls) are going to a hotel to celebrate a milestone birthday for one of us. We thought it would be fun to have matching jammies, so I went shopping.
Typically I would have just grabbed the 3x knowing it would fit, bought it and walked out of the store. I just couldn't bring myself to do that this time. Some of my 3x items had been fitting rather loose and I thought it was time to try a 2x. I grabbed a 3x to take to the fitting room too, just in case. I would have been fine either way, I am the size I am and I can't change it over night. If we could do that we would all eat to our hearts content and wake up a size no bigger than 6 in the morning. So I put the 2x on and was very pleased. Aside from the bottoms being a little on the long side, they fit just fine, and so did the top! I probably could have put on a 1x but wouldn't have been comfortable until I lose another 10-15 pounds.
Changing sizes is fun, when the numbers get smaller :) Looking forward to more sizes in the future, eventually hoping to have to buy ALL NEW CLOTHES. And for a girl that isn't a bad thing :)
The birthday girl doesn't know we are doing this, she will be thrilled and giggly. It is fun to go back in time and act like a teenager at a slumber party, everyone should do it once in a while.
Thanks for reading!
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
I can only control myself.
Let's start with the update. This week down 2 lbs to 246. That is 16 pounds total lost and I am feeling awesome! The clothes are fitting a little looser, I have been told you can see a difference in my face too. I don't see it, but I think I will be the last person to notice changes like that. There is one change I notice every morning, whenever I put my coat on there seems to be some wiggle room where the coat used to fit right on my tummy.
Now, I can only control myself. I am a victim of wanting everyone around me to be doing as well as I am. I want them all to have the same will power, ambition to succeed, desire to stay on task, I want everyone to jump in with both feet and immediately see the benefits. I, however, have no control over anyone but myself. I can't do this for anyone else. I can only be supportive of them, and cheer them on to do the best they can do. It is very difficult for me, and what is strange is that it is the first time this is a problem. Mind you, I have done MULTIPLE diet things in the past, and have always been jealous of the ones doing better than me. Why? Because I didn't have the will power, ambition, or desire to be successful.
So the question I have asked myself many times is: "what makes this time different?" (at least to this point). About the only answer I have, is this time I am TRULY happy in at least one area of my life. For the first time since I started working at age 16, I LOVE MY JOB. I started working for a new company in October of 2011. I have the best boss, co-workers, and clients a girl could hope for. I have to be to work at 6:20 am and I am not a morning person, but I have no trouble being up and off to work at that time of day. So with this aspect of my life going so well, I suddenly feel like I can work on me.
Unfortunately, the only one I can work on is me. Because I am the only one I can control. I do promise to cheer on, be supportive, listen, offer suggestions or advice if asked, and just be a friend, of anyone who needs it.
Now, I can only control myself. I am a victim of wanting everyone around me to be doing as well as I am. I want them all to have the same will power, ambition to succeed, desire to stay on task, I want everyone to jump in with both feet and immediately see the benefits. I, however, have no control over anyone but myself. I can't do this for anyone else. I can only be supportive of them, and cheer them on to do the best they can do. It is very difficult for me, and what is strange is that it is the first time this is a problem. Mind you, I have done MULTIPLE diet things in the past, and have always been jealous of the ones doing better than me. Why? Because I didn't have the will power, ambition, or desire to be successful.
So the question I have asked myself many times is: "what makes this time different?" (at least to this point). About the only answer I have, is this time I am TRULY happy in at least one area of my life. For the first time since I started working at age 16, I LOVE MY JOB. I started working for a new company in October of 2011. I have the best boss, co-workers, and clients a girl could hope for. I have to be to work at 6:20 am and I am not a morning person, but I have no trouble being up and off to work at that time of day. So with this aspect of my life going so well, I suddenly feel like I can work on me.
Unfortunately, the only one I can work on is me. Because I am the only one I can control. I do promise to cheer on, be supportive, listen, offer suggestions or advice if asked, and just be a friend, of anyone who needs it.
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Even a little loss is better than a tiny gain
So, as I said in my first blog, I was bound to slow down eventually. This week I was down just 2 lbs, so new weight -- for those keeping track -- is 248. I have decided to use only whole numbers, I am not a fan of the .2 if the big number doesn't change I don't count it as a loss.
This last weekend was a bit more hectic. I always go over to my brothers house during basketball season for the rec program (my brother and sister in law run it, and my 2 oldest nephews play) and my 4 yr old nephew does not need to be at the basketball court for 7 hours straight. So I go over on Friday and stay till Sunday to take care of the little guy. Well this last weekend the middle nephew had a fever of 102.9 without a known source for it. So I had him all day Saturday as well, no big deal, except my brother was lacking good choices in his fridge and with a sick kid I wasn't leaving to go to wal-mart. So I ate what the kids ate. I still had Weight Watchers (WW) points at the end of the weekend but mac & cheese, and pizza, were not the best choices.
But I am not complaining AT ALL, because a loss is a loss and that is always good. And besides that these new numbers on the scale I haven't seen in well over a year, and that is motivation enough to keep it up.
My sister and her boyfriend are also doing well on their efforts and I am extremely proud of them! My friends also ALL had a loss this week, so it was good all around. As difficult as it is to do this, it would be much more difficult to do it alone.
My cousin who lives in Oregon, is responsible for me joining WW and I will be forever grateful to her for her encouragement and love. She started WW a few months before me and it was working for her, so I jumped on the band wagon. If anyone reading this blog has questions about the program or are considering joining hit me up for info. I am by no means an expert but I have figured lots of things out.
So lastly, the other thing that I have been doing the past couple of weeks is getting some actual exercise. Some of my work friends and I go to the local gym and walk the track, I am logging over 2 miles each time and about 3 times a week. Pretty sure the change in my eating habits will not shed the pounds by itself, at least not for very long.
Thanks for reading! I will be back next week with a new update.
This last weekend was a bit more hectic. I always go over to my brothers house during basketball season for the rec program (my brother and sister in law run it, and my 2 oldest nephews play) and my 4 yr old nephew does not need to be at the basketball court for 7 hours straight. So I go over on Friday and stay till Sunday to take care of the little guy. Well this last weekend the middle nephew had a fever of 102.9 without a known source for it. So I had him all day Saturday as well, no big deal, except my brother was lacking good choices in his fridge and with a sick kid I wasn't leaving to go to wal-mart. So I ate what the kids ate. I still had Weight Watchers (WW) points at the end of the weekend but mac & cheese, and pizza, were not the best choices.
But I am not complaining AT ALL, because a loss is a loss and that is always good. And besides that these new numbers on the scale I haven't seen in well over a year, and that is motivation enough to keep it up.
My sister and her boyfriend are also doing well on their efforts and I am extremely proud of them! My friends also ALL had a loss this week, so it was good all around. As difficult as it is to do this, it would be much more difficult to do it alone.
My cousin who lives in Oregon, is responsible for me joining WW and I will be forever grateful to her for her encouragement and love. She started WW a few months before me and it was working for her, so I jumped on the band wagon. If anyone reading this blog has questions about the program or are considering joining hit me up for info. I am by no means an expert but I have figured lots of things out.
So lastly, the other thing that I have been doing the past couple of weeks is getting some actual exercise. Some of my work friends and I go to the local gym and walk the track, I am logging over 2 miles each time and about 3 times a week. Pretty sure the change in my eating habits will not shed the pounds by itself, at least not for very long.
Thanks for reading! I will be back next week with a new update.
Thursday, January 19, 2012
New Year New You
I was getting dressed on December 26th and looked at the size of the jeans I was about to put on. I always do this, I want to make sure I am not putting on the ones that are a little on the small side, or if I am I know that I am. So I looked at the size, 26 (btw, these are not the jeans that are a little on the small side). 26! When did this happen? How did this happen? This can't really be me is what I was saying to myself. I looked in the mirror and thought, you look like you are only a size 20 (still not great but certainly not a 26!).
I vowed to myself, then and there, that I WOULD NOT start 2013 at the same size I started 2012.
This blog will follow my transformation. As there WILL be a transformation. It WILL work this time, because I didn't make losing weight a resolution, I made it a vow.
I am not alone in this however, I have a huge support team, and friends that are doing this with me. My sister, her boyfriend, and a bunch of people I work with. In fact at work we have formed a group that we call the No More Chub Club. If given permission from my friends I may include them in this blog.
Based on a full disclosure policy (that I am imposing on myself) I am even posting my weights as I go. I joined Weight Watchers (c) on January 2nd and am not writing this until 1/19 so I have some catching up to do, so here goes:
Jan 2nd: 262
Jan 9th: 258
Jan 16th: 250.8
That means in 2 weeks time I have lost 11.2 pounds. This is slightly fast, but it always is the first couple weeks. I expect it to slow down now that I have more of a routine in place. Pretty proud of myself so far, have a long way to go. I don't have a target weight I want to end up, I hope to know it when I get there, but in the mean time, my goals are set 5% of the start weight, not quite there yet, but well on my way.
Please come along for the ride and help cheer me and my friends on. By the way, if you don't have positive comments to say, please just don't post a comment, this is very difficult for me, and I intend to succeed.
I vowed to myself, then and there, that I WOULD NOT start 2013 at the same size I started 2012.
This blog will follow my transformation. As there WILL be a transformation. It WILL work this time, because I didn't make losing weight a resolution, I made it a vow.
I am not alone in this however, I have a huge support team, and friends that are doing this with me. My sister, her boyfriend, and a bunch of people I work with. In fact at work we have formed a group that we call the No More Chub Club. If given permission from my friends I may include them in this blog.
Based on a full disclosure policy (that I am imposing on myself) I am even posting my weights as I go. I joined Weight Watchers (c) on January 2nd and am not writing this until 1/19 so I have some catching up to do, so here goes:
Jan 2nd: 262
Jan 9th: 258
Jan 16th: 250.8
That means in 2 weeks time I have lost 11.2 pounds. This is slightly fast, but it always is the first couple weeks. I expect it to slow down now that I have more of a routine in place. Pretty proud of myself so far, have a long way to go. I don't have a target weight I want to end up, I hope to know it when I get there, but in the mean time, my goals are set 5% of the start weight, not quite there yet, but well on my way.
Please come along for the ride and help cheer me and my friends on. By the way, if you don't have positive comments to say, please just don't post a comment, this is very difficult for me, and I intend to succeed.
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