Update: Down another pound! Now 244. I was really hoping to get to 20 lbs this week, but I will settle for the 18 that are gone. :)
For the first time since starting Weight Watchers and exercising, I had a craving. A craving that I didn't think I was going to be able to avoid. I was a fast food junkie. I would eat at McDonald's (mostly, but the others once in a while too) at least 3 times a week. I have not been to a fast food place since Jan 1st, 2012. My willpower had been super strong. But last Friday, I wanted a double cheeseburger and fries and a large coke, and I wanted it bad.
As I do every weekend during pee-wee basketball season, I headed to Saginaw to help take care of my little nephew, while his brothers hoop it up. I drive by like 4 McDonald's on the way. I fought the urge by driving in the inside lane rather than the lane next to the driveway. I was certain if I didn't have that cushion between me and the restaurant I would lose the battle and pull in. I made it to my brothers house without stopping. *whew*
The craving didn't go away! Saturday, still wanted it, Sunday, still wanted it, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday- yep you guessed it still wanted it. And to top it off, on Monday I was SO hungry I thought I could eat an entire pizza, cheesecake, and loaf of bread! I haven't been hungry like that in a really LONG time. And certainly not since I had started on this journey. Then all became clear on Thursday. I am a girl. That pretty much sums it up. Sometimes being a girl sucks! But the good news is, I now know I can make it through even the toughest cravings. Even if I have to continue rollin' along right on past the drive way of all the fast food stops.
Thanks for reading! I'll be back next week.
Thursday, February 23, 2012
Thursday, February 16, 2012
Holding My Own
The update: 0 lbs lost and 0 lbs gained still 245.
The blog: In attempts past, this would have been very devastating to me. NO LOSS?? What? Meh, Sometimes you are going to lose and sometimes you are going to gain, and sometimes you are going to hold your own.
I have been doing a lot of losing over the first 5 weeks or so, and as I have said before that is not likely to always be the case. This week is just the first of many that will feel like I am not succeeding. HOWEVER, I know what happened that I didn't lose, I knew it when it was happening, and I was just hoping I wouldn't gain. I went out to dinner on Friday, had dessert, a drink, and a big breakfast on Saturday morning. I CHOSE not to track those weight watcher points. I needed a break from all the worry of what I was putting in my mouth. Sometimes you just need to enjoy yourself.
I refuse this time to let a minor "set back" or outright choice I made to be my demise. So when I checked the scale on Monday to see where I was at and was up a pound, I re-focused, and pushed ahead. By Wednesday (my weigh in day) I was back to the same as last week. I intend to be down a little next week. That is how this has to go. There are no true set backs, there are only bumps in the road. I will not let a bump deter me from my goal.
Thanks for reading!
The blog: In attempts past, this would have been very devastating to me. NO LOSS?? What? Meh, Sometimes you are going to lose and sometimes you are going to gain, and sometimes you are going to hold your own.
I have been doing a lot of losing over the first 5 weeks or so, and as I have said before that is not likely to always be the case. This week is just the first of many that will feel like I am not succeeding. HOWEVER, I know what happened that I didn't lose, I knew it when it was happening, and I was just hoping I wouldn't gain. I went out to dinner on Friday, had dessert, a drink, and a big breakfast on Saturday morning. I CHOSE not to track those weight watcher points. I needed a break from all the worry of what I was putting in my mouth. Sometimes you just need to enjoy yourself.
I refuse this time to let a minor "set back" or outright choice I made to be my demise. So when I checked the scale on Monday to see where I was at and was up a pound, I re-focused, and pushed ahead. By Wednesday (my weigh in day) I was back to the same as last week. I intend to be down a little next week. That is how this has to go. There are no true set backs, there are only bumps in the road. I will not let a bump deter me from my goal.
Thanks for reading!
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Changing sizes
The update: Down 1 lb to 245, I don't think I have seen this number on the scale in maybe 2-3 years. For those keeping track, it is 17 lbs gone :) Needless to say I am thrilled.
The blog: I haven't had an occasion to go shopping for clothes in a while. I got a few new things at Christmas, and my birthday back in October, but with out a reason to go get something new, I tend to save my pennies. This coming Friday, myself and a couple of my cousins (all girls) are going to a hotel to celebrate a milestone birthday for one of us. We thought it would be fun to have matching jammies, so I went shopping.
Typically I would have just grabbed the 3x knowing it would fit, bought it and walked out of the store. I just couldn't bring myself to do that this time. Some of my 3x items had been fitting rather loose and I thought it was time to try a 2x. I grabbed a 3x to take to the fitting room too, just in case. I would have been fine either way, I am the size I am and I can't change it over night. If we could do that we would all eat to our hearts content and wake up a size no bigger than 6 in the morning. So I put the 2x on and was very pleased. Aside from the bottoms being a little on the long side, they fit just fine, and so did the top! I probably could have put on a 1x but wouldn't have been comfortable until I lose another 10-15 pounds.
Changing sizes is fun, when the numbers get smaller :) Looking forward to more sizes in the future, eventually hoping to have to buy ALL NEW CLOTHES. And for a girl that isn't a bad thing :)
The birthday girl doesn't know we are doing this, she will be thrilled and giggly. It is fun to go back in time and act like a teenager at a slumber party, everyone should do it once in a while.
Thanks for reading!
The blog: I haven't had an occasion to go shopping for clothes in a while. I got a few new things at Christmas, and my birthday back in October, but with out a reason to go get something new, I tend to save my pennies. This coming Friday, myself and a couple of my cousins (all girls) are going to a hotel to celebrate a milestone birthday for one of us. We thought it would be fun to have matching jammies, so I went shopping.
Typically I would have just grabbed the 3x knowing it would fit, bought it and walked out of the store. I just couldn't bring myself to do that this time. Some of my 3x items had been fitting rather loose and I thought it was time to try a 2x. I grabbed a 3x to take to the fitting room too, just in case. I would have been fine either way, I am the size I am and I can't change it over night. If we could do that we would all eat to our hearts content and wake up a size no bigger than 6 in the morning. So I put the 2x on and was very pleased. Aside from the bottoms being a little on the long side, they fit just fine, and so did the top! I probably could have put on a 1x but wouldn't have been comfortable until I lose another 10-15 pounds.
Changing sizes is fun, when the numbers get smaller :) Looking forward to more sizes in the future, eventually hoping to have to buy ALL NEW CLOTHES. And for a girl that isn't a bad thing :)
The birthday girl doesn't know we are doing this, she will be thrilled and giggly. It is fun to go back in time and act like a teenager at a slumber party, everyone should do it once in a while.
Thanks for reading!
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
I can only control myself.
Let's start with the update. This week down 2 lbs to 246. That is 16 pounds total lost and I am feeling awesome! The clothes are fitting a little looser, I have been told you can see a difference in my face too. I don't see it, but I think I will be the last person to notice changes like that. There is one change I notice every morning, whenever I put my coat on there seems to be some wiggle room where the coat used to fit right on my tummy.
Now, I can only control myself. I am a victim of wanting everyone around me to be doing as well as I am. I want them all to have the same will power, ambition to succeed, desire to stay on task, I want everyone to jump in with both feet and immediately see the benefits. I, however, have no control over anyone but myself. I can't do this for anyone else. I can only be supportive of them, and cheer them on to do the best they can do. It is very difficult for me, and what is strange is that it is the first time this is a problem. Mind you, I have done MULTIPLE diet things in the past, and have always been jealous of the ones doing better than me. Why? Because I didn't have the will power, ambition, or desire to be successful.
So the question I have asked myself many times is: "what makes this time different?" (at least to this point). About the only answer I have, is this time I am TRULY happy in at least one area of my life. For the first time since I started working at age 16, I LOVE MY JOB. I started working for a new company in October of 2011. I have the best boss, co-workers, and clients a girl could hope for. I have to be to work at 6:20 am and I am not a morning person, but I have no trouble being up and off to work at that time of day. So with this aspect of my life going so well, I suddenly feel like I can work on me.
Unfortunately, the only one I can work on is me. Because I am the only one I can control. I do promise to cheer on, be supportive, listen, offer suggestions or advice if asked, and just be a friend, of anyone who needs it.
Now, I can only control myself. I am a victim of wanting everyone around me to be doing as well as I am. I want them all to have the same will power, ambition to succeed, desire to stay on task, I want everyone to jump in with both feet and immediately see the benefits. I, however, have no control over anyone but myself. I can't do this for anyone else. I can only be supportive of them, and cheer them on to do the best they can do. It is very difficult for me, and what is strange is that it is the first time this is a problem. Mind you, I have done MULTIPLE diet things in the past, and have always been jealous of the ones doing better than me. Why? Because I didn't have the will power, ambition, or desire to be successful.
So the question I have asked myself many times is: "what makes this time different?" (at least to this point). About the only answer I have, is this time I am TRULY happy in at least one area of my life. For the first time since I started working at age 16, I LOVE MY JOB. I started working for a new company in October of 2011. I have the best boss, co-workers, and clients a girl could hope for. I have to be to work at 6:20 am and I am not a morning person, but I have no trouble being up and off to work at that time of day. So with this aspect of my life going so well, I suddenly feel like I can work on me.
Unfortunately, the only one I can work on is me. Because I am the only one I can control. I do promise to cheer on, be supportive, listen, offer suggestions or advice if asked, and just be a friend, of anyone who needs it.
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